well done biggerfish aint that the truth , hows your panic disorder now? your anxiety .
Quote from: Sunshine days on March 08, 2017, 06:39:08 PMwell done biggerfish aint that the truth , hows your panic disorder now? your anxiety .Thank you for asking. It's very much improved. I'm working on self-compassion, self-acceptance, and I've gone NC with my inner critic. As a result, the anxiety just isn't as intense as it used to be. It doesn't take over my brain and body.Now I can try new things. Case in point -- I'm going for a volunteer job interview today. Wish me luck. Yes there is recovery from anxiety and panic!
After 25 years of marriage, my NH left me a year ago, assuming he could come back at any time. We continued to "work on our marriage," including sex for a few months. At that point, I had not had my lightbulb moment yet. Late last summer, within a couple of weeks time, my dad had a stroke and was in the hospital for a week, one of our dogs tore ligaments in both rear legs and had to have surgery, and I suffered a ruptured disc that left me unable to walk and in severe pain for a couple of weeks, effectively removing me as my husband's supply for attention and sex. While I was recovering from steroid injections in my back and just starting to be able to walk again, he came over to the house one morning. Some workers were upstairs at our house, so he tried to forcefully pull me into a work room in our basement, with a concrete floor and filled with tools and workout equipment, because he said he had figured out a way we could have sex without hurting my back. That was the moment in which I realized that he literally did not care about me at all, that he was willing to risk seriously damaging my back and my ability to walk, just because he hadn't had sex in a few weeks.. We own a business together and have children, so NC isn't possible at this point, but there have been very few times since that day when I have allowed myself to be alone with him.