This is more of a vent and an expression of how Iím feeling but Iíd be grateful for thoughts please.The former marital home sale completes this Friday whereupon my ex wife gets 90% of the equity, and all of the house items. From my 10% I pay off her loan that I knew nothing about until we separated (my salary was paying all bills and she has never disclosed what the loan was for and there are no material items to show for it). This leaves me with very little. Since our separation and divorce I have continued to pay 100% off the mortgage but have been renting with family.Perhaps because this is the final stage following which there is no link (except through our children) it is why I am feeling sad. Not sad due to regret, I had no choice and Iíve mentioned this elsewhere on the forums, but sad due to loss of dreams and the fact that my boys will now have to move and downsize and the disruption theyíve had in their young lives.From her share (share is not really correct as it is anything but an equal split!) of the equity my ex has sufficient funds to purchase a 3 bedroom property mortgage fee in a good part of town, however she has elected to buy a pricey 2 bedroom house in an overly priced area. Whilst my boys get on great, having to share a room is not ideal and doesnít need to be the case. This also saddens me that they are affected in this way. My ex has chosen to only work part time. In addition I am paying more child maintenance than I should be, but I chose to do so so that my boys are provided for.For my part I will have a very small deposit from the sale and will need to get a huge mortgage and work until Iím 70 in order to purchase a property.My ex fought viciously throughout the divorce, trying to prevent access to the children and false accusations to the Police and Social workers. She was put firmly in her place by the authorities but I still had to go to court to get overnight stays. I feel that I have acted fairly throughout and enabled her to have a secure future in spite of how she treated me. She on the other hand tried to destroy me financially, emotionally and reputationally and had absolutely no problem in trying to sever my links and relationship with my boys.So my question is, despite the above and knowing that I have done all I can for my boys why do I feel sad and to a greater extent that I have failed them?