Quarantine, patience wearing thin

[11JB68]

We're not really'quarantined' completely thank goodness. I'm going in to work twice a week. Ds goes out to work every day. Still it's too much together time for me with uocpdh.
My anxiety is high. I'm feeling depressed. My patience is wearing thin.
I know I'm struggling now with maintaining mc. Still managing to avoid jade mostly.
There are so many things 'on the tip of my tongue' that I have to try so hard not to verbalize. I don't want to stoop to h's level or initiate a fight.
I'm just so tempted to make comments that I know would be sarcastic, hurtful, and unproductive.
How do you all manage this in times of stress?

[GettingOOTF]

What I’m finding with the quarantine is that it’s really highlighting the areas of my life that I avoid looking at.

In general I’m very busy with my job and other random errands and activities so I don’t really have much of a chance to sit quietly. That’s all I’m doing now and it’s forcing me to look at the reality of my situation, there is no hiding from it.

I think this is the case for a lot of people right now, and people in PD relationships in particular now that most of our coping/escape mechanisms have been taken away.

For me a lot of anger is coming up and I’m looking at that anger, where it came from/what am I actually angry about and working through that which I do by allowing myself to feel the emotion and really look at its origins and how I can change going forward.

What is really coming up for me is all the moves I didn’t make, like I wanted to leave the city I live in but I procrastinated. Now I’m stuck here rather than somewhere that would be much more comfortable. I’m also frustrated at how I haven’t saved like I could have, which limits my options now. I’m making plans and taking steps to address these things.

This is a stressful time for everyone and it’s bringing up the ugly parts of our lives and forcing us to look at them.

You are in a bad situation so your feelings are natural but you are right in that starting a fight wont help anything.

In times of stress I try to turn inward. There is nothing we can do about other people so I focus on myself.

Hang in there.

[11JB68]

Thank you gootf...