I'm going to read some of my old posts to remind myself what a basically bad guy my H is. Today and Sunday (respite in between) H was out of control perhaps triggered by illness. He sent me and my 15 y.o. a very good apology by text but by the time I got home last night he was raging because he was upset that we have ants in the house. When I wanted a more animated partner, I guess this is what I got. He went to a week long recovery program 15 months ago and has been practicing meditation and reading daily affirmations and going to a 12 step meeting once a week but he told me Sunday he quit. Not working.
Excellent idea to reread old posts so that abuse amnesia doesn't set in - that's a good toolbox topic BTW.