Hey all,
I know better intellectually, but emotionally? Two years later my probable HPD or NPD ex still weighs on my heart and mind. I don't know if I need support, or just to share, how these relationships can burn in to the point of becoming obsessive. It is not even that I want to go backwards, it's that it took such a toll on my self-esteem, I still spend time with my T working it out.
There is probably a good emoji for this :P
Hi xdamage,
It is perfectly normal to still feel as you do. It is good that you're working on your recovery with a therapist. This shows that you value yourself. Ultimately, how we care about and for ourselves is what will see us through.
I still feel sad about having to end a longterm friendship, one I'd had since I was in my late teens. But as time passes, it gets easier, and I know it was the only decision, because this person was not going to change, no matter how hard I tried. Finally, I realized that change wouldn't happen because my friend had no desire to change!
All we can do is work on changing ourselves, and resolve to avoid PD people, as much as possible, in the future. Almost everyone on here has experienced the pain of interacting with a PD. We all understand how hard recovery can be.
It's normal to feel that way. I still do and many years have passed. So don't be hard on yourself. It does get better with time, but it usually takes long time to heal fully. Hang in there and only surround yourself with positive people.