New Here, Knot to Recovery

[KnotNow]

  I am currently trying to recover from an addiction I have had for decades. I am in a 12 Step program.

  As I learn new things and feel better about myself, I find I am bitter and impatient with those around me. I desperately want to accept the love and care that those around me give freely, but I also feel the desperation in trying to maintain routine and control, but that change makes me feel vulnerable and exposed.

  Why can't I just be satisfied? Why can't I appreciate the support? I accept kindness and indifference from a stranger but I think and feel like those close to me are rejecting me, abandoning me.

I am knot who I will be, I do knot want to be who I am now.

Thanks for being here. 
 

[xredshoesx]

welcome to the group knotnow-

the part of the recovery process we help with involves folks being in a relationship with someone with a personality disorder, diagnosed or not.  It could be a family member, coworker or romantic partner. 

when you are ready let us know what kind of PD/uPD relationship you are healing from and we can point you towards the resources on the board that mesh best with your needs.

hope to see you on the boards soon-