Pressure

[Nonamenoshame]

I came back it was mistake, I fell for the manipulation again, it's been a couple months and I feel like I'm defeated and the pressure now is unbearable

[bloomie]

Nonamenoshame - I am so sorry for the situation you are facing. How are you doing?

[Here Again]

my heart goes out to you. Take care of yourself first, before trying to solve this situation. The stronger you can be mentally, the clearer the path can be for going forward. I know, easier said than done, been there myself. Remember, you're not alone.

[PlantFlowersNotWeeds]

Please don't be hard on yourself - you did nothing wrong but care/love for someone and wish for something meaningful. 

I agree with the prior post - find your strength, your solid ground.  Be kind to yourself, take care of  yourself. 

You aren't alone

[hhaw]

Going back gave you more information.  It's not a failure.  It's more proof you need to go and build a life on your own, imo.

Judging things bad or good shuts down important emotional work and finding clarity, ime.

When I get curiouser about things, instead of judgmental, I see what's behind the problems.  I SEE solutions and choices I couldn't see before.

Right now your nose is on the Pebble...,you have no so emotional distance on your situation......it shuts down your frontal cortex where logic and reason happen in the brain.

Getting curious, breathing mindfully, going into nature helps restore choice, ime.

You're going to leave when you're ready and you'll grow way past your PD.

Trust yourself.  You're an amazing resource.....be kind and take care of yourself like you would a small child.

And keep breathing.....fill your lungs from the bottom up.  Like filling a vase and notice how it feels to do so.  10x.  It helps shift you out of fight or flight to restore higher thinking, creative problem solving skills you need.

It's going to be ok.