Feeling Ashamed and Foolish

[Sandy]

I am so grateful for this site, but so sad that it even has to exist.  I cut all ties with someone I cared very much for a week ago.  I've stuck to my guns and realize that he was draining me dry emotionally, mentally, in all ways.  I was feeling hopeless.  He is a narcissist and I didn't realize it until almost the end.  He always had to come first; his life was all that counted; he constantly told me about all the married women he slept with.  It was almost like he wanted to hurt me on purpose.  My life didn't count for anything.  I was quite used to being treated this way as my mother was a narcissist and I grew up with no self esteem.  I am determined to grow through this experience and have a better life.  The saddest part of this story is that he found me on a website for people with depression, anxiety and other mental health issues.  Thank you for listening to me.

[Spring Butterfly]

Welcome and it's bitter sweet finding this place and from my perspective welcoming new ones like yourself. I'm glad you're taking steps to protect yourself and recognize the original source. The toolbox at the top of the forum helped me so very much. Breaking the pattern and growth is the key to healing. Wishing you peace.

[NarcKiddo]

Welcome. I'm sure you will find help and support here. We know what it feels like.

Hugs.

[Sandy]

I believe I am one of the lucky ones.  He has moved onto another victim and most likely not try to contact me.  I am grateful for that.  I am having a tough time today for some reason.  I'm at work, but keep thinking about him.  Then I get angry with myself for wasting my time thinking about someone who never cared for me.  It seems like a vicious cycle.  I never knew there were so many people affected by narcissists.  I've tried to get in to see a therapist, but there are such long waiting lists.  It's crazy.  I'm not sure I can heal myself.  Can anyone tell me why we have to fill in all the blanks to post something?