Where do i start?

[emberablo]

I’ve posted history in welcome and recent issues just this week in chosen relationships ill try not to rehash. Also not sure if this is the right section for this post.. we’re not married, she’s pregnant with our second child, we dont live together, she withholds our child from me.

She’s withheld a public easter event with our son from me, claiming hes too sick last night. I had also made suggestion about visiting my aunt next weekend that Shes agreed with.

This morning Shes wavered and suggested hes actually probably ok to go today, but to the point where i basically had to beg her to let him go, she then said ok then we wont go to your aunts. Claiming im abusing her by not respecting her time, and that me crying when she attacks me about her time and withholding our son from me is me abusing her.

We’re meeting with only an hour and half of time before the event closes. And shes made it clear she’ll probably cancel.

This was my last straw, i see her abuse, i feel her abuse. Shes using him against me.

Ive been to a lawyer 2 years ago to get access to my son, and i had to refinance my house to afford it. We resolved our issues outside of the legal help. But I cant do that again, but i also cant let this go on.

I have my fears on top of the legal system, i also have adhd and have defiance problems with authority because of that. Not to criminal levels or anything, but just defiance probably more disagreements with authority.

I fear the near term expense, and the legally required expense in the future. I pay her support now and have it all recorded. I pay for other stuff and i have records just need to sort it.

I’m scared, I’m overwhelmed, I’m effectively poor (but not technically).

I fear her accusations against me. I fear my brain isnt up to this task. Let alone can i convey the problems over the last three+ years?

Where do i go? How do i afford this now?

[SonofThunder]

Hi emberablo,

Im so very sorry to read about your experiences with your your partner and that she manipulates you regarding your son.  I don't have any experience in your situation, nor any advise, but wanted to drop in and let you know you are not alone. 

I will be keeping you in thought and prayer.

SoT

[emberablo]

Thank you. I feel so alone through this.

Ive read others posts. I know I'm not the problem... i know I'm not the only person in the world dealing with this kind of thing. It feels less alone, but it definitely feels very alone with days like this.