Tired

[cepnahu]

I dont even have the energy to vent about what i been going through lately. I've been dissociating, im not sure where i am, what im feeling or whats going on, i have no idea how to snap out of it. I cant even explain what she's been doing to me, the damage she's been dealing on me since i even know about myself and i feel guilty making it out as if she's to blame about everything cause im not easy to deal with either, im just as awful as her. I dont really have anyone to reach out to either, i guess thats why im writing here, maybe a call for help, at least online, one last try. Im not sure how much longer I'll last here, my thoughts are messed up lately.

[JR]

your in what they call "The narcissistic fog" they have gotten you there using the arsenal of toxic manipulations, and tactics against you until you've become a shell of what you once were, this is all done to you by design by the narcissist to take control of you while they remain in the power position in your relationship.

[TimetoHeal]

 

Please stay around a while.  Look at the Toolbox, and see if you can implement one small change at a time.  Just getting information and clarity is a step. 

[walking on broken glass]

Cepnahu, please keep writing here.
I hear you. It is tiring. It is exhausting. You need to use all the help you can get to get yourself out of the place you are in just now. Don't give up. We are here for you.

[Cenerentola]

I really relate to the fog comment.  Disassociating is a (one of several) normal response to things that are intensely confusing.  No pressure to post from is, but there are good people here to listen if/when you are ready.

[Liketheducks]

I can completely relate.   Stay here.   You're in the right place.