I just have this constant fear and dread

[Prototypian]

As we approach the holidays I work remote and or I take time off.   I happen to love to make the house look nice with some holiday decorations inside and outside and I like to make nice things like cookies or family recipes for fudge or ohther candy.   I live with this huge anxiety all the time about the walkthrough.  The only way I can describe it is like the movies about marine boot camp when a drill sergeant walks through the barracks and looks for things out of place or dirty.   Except it's not mess, it's things she can't control and feels she should.   At least that's what I think it is.