A little bit of hope

[wasted_tropics]

Last night she called, and I answered.

She said that she realized everything I said that afternoon was right, and she was sorry, and that we might not be good together like I said. She said she didn't want to sign papers yet, but she recognized my stepping out of the relationship and she was going to talk to her base legal like I did so we both know the process and after that she would probably be willing to sign the seperation agreement.

Maybe it's a trick, maybe it isn't. Her base legal appointment is next week so I'm hoping that things begin to cap off after that. I hate feeling like my life is on pause, like I can't be a whole person until this damn chain is off from around my throat.

Two of my friends are taking me to a concert on Friday. My plan is to turn my phone off and not deal with any anxiety or drama, or any of her attempts to suck me back in.

[Whiteheron]

Sometimes they do seem to have brief moments of clarity. My stbx had a few and it completely caught me off guard.
I hope she does sign the separation agreement so you can move on. It's great you have plans with your friends. No contact is the best way to regain your footing.