Childhood dreams about my father

[ambivalent1]

My father, who has been dead for 6 or 7 years was physically and emotionally abusive.  I really believe his desire was to ultimately destroy me.
I believe my unconscious on this.  When I was a child a had a dream once that my father was a vampire and was coming after me to try and kill me.  I literally had a dream that he was trying to drain the life out of me.  I woke up having gotten away from him but very scared
When I  was thirteen I had a dream about a hooded figure trying to attack me.  He could shoot red light beams out of his eyes and anyone who was hit would be possessed by the devil.  Again I was unharmed in the dream but woke up very scared.
The vampire dream was just a scary dream until I became an adult and realized what it really meant.  I take a certain amount of comfort that a wiser part of my psyche backs up and validates what I think about my father.
Likewise with the demonic dream.

[blacksheep7]

So sorry that you had those Nightmares!  As a child that must have been very traumatizing, added to your father's abuse.  Thank goodness that you were able to translate the dream.

I understand as my NF was a raging man.  I also had many dreams of him even as a full grown adult with kids of my own, getting into heated arguements, his control over me.

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My one nightmare that I still vividly remember is that I was the one who killed him, stabbed him.  I am not a violent person but in my subconscious I wanted him out of my life.