Feeling Free

[j.banquo]

I first noticed the dysfunction in my FOO in 2021. The past few weeks, I've really come home to again, seeing things past and present as abusive, not just that but severely abusive, and it feels so freeing. It wasn't me, and I can have a future now.

I've been having to sit and just FEEL these extremely intense emotions, anger, fear, sadness, confusion, along with such intense memories, while living in my abusive mother's house. But it feels okay, because they're real emotions, because of real memories and experiences, and I just process them, and honestly my shoulders haven't felt this relaxed for years and years.

Anyone else find feelings of freedom in fully embracing the truth?

[Lookin 2 B Free]

This is wonderful to hear, J.B.!  I have experienced this, but I also "relapse" sometimes without realizing it until later.  Not with obviously abusive behavior, but more subtle stuff meant to distract from some "elephant in the living room."  If I pay attention to my body, it will tell me when something's wrong or when something is finally right.  More power to you!