I'm just hurt.

[losingmyself]

Everything you all are saying is true. I honestly believe it's more about how I feel about myself than how he feels about me. I hope to one day get up the courage and space to speak with him honestly, and express my feelings about what he went through growing up with me and H. I have talked to DD about it, and I feel like we cleared the air a little. I know she's disappointed in my choices, but she still loves me very much. I know he does as well, but I need him to know that I am sorry.
Side note: turns out that DD found out about DS's move from her dad! DS thought he had told her, too. Must have too much going on. That's ok.
Thanks y'all