I've been sent to my Dr by my T

[SparkStillLit]

Long story very short, Dr was like YIKES and I'm on some meds now. Dr wants me to take time off if I can. I have the time, but I don't really want to be home. Because of temp med, I can't be driving for 3 days.
Obviously I have had to share something with updh. I didn't want to share any of it, but I shared as little as possible. He question squaded me. He tried to make me zhare. I refused. Now he is upset. I just found him in a dark room "trying to calm himself down". Dr was yesterday. I walked away. I don't need any more stress, and I told him that yesterday.
Maybe it's mean not to share, but he will just use it against me, or blow up in a negative reaction and in all cases not be supportive, so what difference does it make? Again, I can't support any more stress and upset. Already way over in the red.
He kept asking me if I were protecting HIM. I kept telling him I'm protecting MYSELF. (For once). I also kept telling him how anxiety producing the conversation was, and how I needed to get in my office to set up my work stuff. Ignore. I should have walked away. Still not good at it all.

[SparkStillLit]

What's more, I'm working from home and normally he's popping by my office every 20 min or so.
Now that there's an issue....haven't seen him all day. Yesterday he said he would support me and help me. Funny. Not surprising, though.
He will just take what I said and say it for himself, and withdraw. It won't be any different than before. Maybe worse because active ST.

[notrightinthehead]

ST can be anxiety producing. It can also be a time that allows you to find some calm within you. I used to focus on myself. I did a lot of breathing and body scan exercises. I tried to focus on something I could control - which his moods and his behaviour was not. My work, my tasks, my behaviour.
I hope you can find some calm and strength to take care of yourself.

[SparkStillLit]

Well, I know it's artificial right now, but my give a f is turned waaaaAaaay down.
It's very nice. I can do things again and just be still, rest, relax, not care, function....my brain is being quiet. Even he is not bugging me. I don't care.
I like these I don't care meds. It's not ativan, it's  idgaf.

[lakersgirl248]

I understand the struggle. I feel like it happens t all of us from time to time. I think you will gt through this though.