So ai left again

[sunshine702]

Left again staying at my hotel again. I really feel I am getting out this time.

The whole family stopped talking to me.  One aunt will "help me get my things". I always liked her!  She gets it.

Nothing but anger and disgust brewing.   Kinda glad I practiced this for the real deal. 

Talked to the and got the info and app on a beautiful apt

New life here I come

[xredshoesx]

keep us posted!  I know for me when I left at 22 I never looked back.  30 years later it hasn't been easy but it hasn't been full of lies and abuse either <3

[sunshine702]

I have a lovely apartment I have applied for !  Brand new very nice for tiny town.  I am actually exited

[MaxedOut]

 

[SonofThunder]

I have a lovely apartment I have applied for !  Brand new very nice for tiny town.  I am actually exited

  +1 Excited for you! 

SoT

[Rebel13]

So happy for you Sunshine.

[SeaBreeze]

Glad to hear you are out. The new apartment sounds exciting!

[sunshine702]

Update- 4 months out.
I have this new found spirituality / religion.  It's sort of a hybrid God/spirit.

It helps A LOT.  I found spiritual leaders and mystics really kind empathic and wise.  I am healing both the relationship cruel and timed discard but also the childhood mud that made me vulnerable. 

I got straight up re traumatized by likely Narc therapists.  Forgive me but I am now deeply suspicious of the entire profession except say Dr Ramani and Les Carter.

Trust your gut people!  Trust your gut!!!!

[escapingman]

Great update sunshine! I really got into spirituality during my healing journey, it has helped me a lot. For youtube content I think Richard Grannon is far the best with his recent content, he really describes the dynamics and it makes so much sense. It has helped me to see what role I played in it all and why, and I no longer see uPDxw as either all bad or all good and I don't see myself as a victim anymore.

Keep up the good work and keep us updated!

[TurnThePage]

Good Luck Sunshine702....wishing you all the best

[sunshine702]

I really like NarcCon / Paula too- yes I know of Richard he's awesome.  This has likely been the most intense 6 months of my life.  Like Saul on the Road to Damascus becoming the prophet  Paul.

[sunshine702]

So a lot of the Narc recovery community feel like there is a spiritual aspect to this and the Devil has targeted you to take your off your Light-worker path.