New Member, Feeling Destroyed and Full of Despair

[MrJones]

Hello all,

So I'm a grown adult who's been raised by an emotionally abusive narc parent, and has currently felt trapped living with her. See, she never harmed me physically, but has taken a horrid toll on my emotionally and mentally. She's not only extremely manipulative and full of gaslighting, but has had a vast history of verbal hostility and uncontrollable rage- so as you can imagine, I've been terrified of her horrible temper since I was a child. She's especially a covert, the worst kind of narc in my book, as she especially plays the victim just about all of the time. I would have left her long ago, but feel as if I'm stuck in trauma bond, as if there's really no one else for me except her and the family system.

[Rebel13]

Hi Mr Jones, I hope you will find some help here! There are wonderful, generous, kind people here who will support you, and the more I read through the Toolbox and Resources sections, the more I realize how much I can improve through learning. Take a look around and welcome!

[bloomie]

Adding another welcome to Out of the FOG, MrJones. I am glad you have reached out for support as you overcome, and grow in understanding of, the insidious nature of what you describe as a toxic environment you are living in and how to empower yourself to break free.

Keep sharing and coming back! We are listening and here to support you!

[MrJones]

Thank you guys so much for validating me already after what I've went through with my mother...it's very much appreciated!