Suicide thoughts triggered by NPDs

[mary_poppins]

Sorry if this is a sensitive topic or if it's triggering to anyone. Feel free to put this post where it belongs. So, I started having suicide thoughts due to living with my NPD parents. They didn't do anything specifically bad but I just had it. Also, I don't think there's hope of escaping them-I thought there was but then again, here I am, still stuck with them, still jobless.

I had to cut out some friends, so that triggered the thoughts as well and being totally alone in the NPD world doesn't help. I wish I could just wake up tomorrow, pack my bags and leave but I can't do that. There is no support in my area, no services for people who are abused, there is actually nothing.
I felt better today when I saw a message from a recruiter, asking for an interview. Thank God. But I don't have hope it will lead to anything concrete, 'cause it happened like that in the past.

How did you get out of a hopeless situation, without friends or the help of relatives or financial support? Is it impossible? I am tired of this and don't want to deal with them anymore.

[bloomie]

mary_poppins - I am so sorry you are in such pain. I wanted to offer a link to resources in hopes that there will be something within them where you can find in real life connection with services as you are facing this.

Emergency links: https://outofthefog.website/emergency

My hope for you is that you find an opportunity for employment to be able to leave the current situation and that you push forward to find trained professionals to help with the hopelessness you share you are feeling. Please know you are in my thoughts!

[bloomie]

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