Hello Out of the FOG

[The_raw_deal]

Hello all,
My therapist suggested I try this site to help me cope with my mental health problems.
Just to give background info: I grew up with undiagnosed narcissists.  One was very mentally abusive, the other covert.  Needless to say, I developed BPD (didn't know it at the time).  I knew I had depression/anxiety, but never got help (it wasn't considered something to get help for in my house). In my early 20's, a doctor suggested I get help, so that is when my journey started.  I focused on my career. Later, I got married to a man that, we found out later, was bi-polar.  I had two children with mental health problems diagnosed from a very early age.  I got divorced and tried to raise my children alone, but working so much made it impossible.  Plus, my mental health was in decline.  So, I had no choice but to move in with my NPD parents. 
I have many physical health problems as well, that I've ignored all my life, but now they are getting worse.  Therefore, still living with NPD parents since I can't work.  My children are grown and doing well, which I'm very happy for.  However, they have cut off communication with me.
There is so much more to my story.  This is just a tidbit. 
I'm glad there is a forum for discussions like this.  I feel like I have been so alone.  I have lost friends and family.  I'm just trying to work on myself mentally and physically.
Thank you for reading.

[bloomie]

Hi, The_raw_deal. Welcome to Out of the FOG. Thank you for sharing some context for the complicated relationships and issues that you are facing and for what brings you to the community.

The feelings of isolation you describe are very hard to hold up under. I am so sorry you are in that space as you attempt to heal and move forward.

A bit of what we do here...we come here to share and gain insights in our relationships with loved ones who have disordered traits and behaviors that are hurting us. We have a sub forum for those dealing with disordered parents found here: https://www.outofthefog.net/forum/index.php?PHPSESSID=40657f070f52de1ba97daacac5bf0866&board=4.0

Take some time to settle in and make good use of the resources at the drop down menus above and that can be found across the forum boards. When you are ready, join the conversations!