desperate and going to pieces

[at_my_limit]

I suffer from schizoid personality disorder and crippling chronic pain and fatigue, among a variety of more nebulous mental and physical challenges. 

I am currently almost completely non-functional and only getting worse as I struggle to navigate the imminent loss of my current housing situation. 

My family make a lot of noise about how much they try to help me, but it is clear that they cannot be relied upon or trusted.  I have no one else.

I'm not sure what I expect to come of this, but I have started making desperate moves. 

Let it not be said that I never reached out for help. 

I NEED HELP

[Rebel13]

Hi at_my_limit,

I'm so sorry for what you are going through. Please reach out to whatever resources you can find in your local area. I know it is hard, but there are places and people out there who will help you help yourself. One resource is the national 988 Suicide and Crisis Line -- call or text 988 -- or call 211 or visit 211.org to get connected with local resources.

Best of luck to you, and wishing you peace and safety.

[xredshoesx]

Hi @at_my_limit  and welcome to Out of the FOG -

Because you have identified yourself as someone who suffers from SPD,  we want to make sure you're aware of a couple of things as you settle in.

Out of the FOG is a community dedicated to offering support and information to people who have a loved one or family member who suffers from a personality disorder. That doesn't necessarily exclude those who also have a PD from participating but the rule is we come here to discuss our relationship issues as they pertain to the other people in our lives with a PD, and not PD recovery issues as they pertain to the self. If you suffer from, or suspect you suffer from a personality disorder, we welcome your participation as long as the discussion still revolves around dealing with the loved ones in your life with a PD and not on your own recovery from a PD.   

Also, we'd like you to be aware that people at a site like this are often hurting a great deal.  They come here needing a safe place to vent about how they may have been hurt by the person in their life with a PD.  At times, these comments can be harsh. Reading them may trigger you, if you are not far enough along in your own recovery to let these comments pass without becoming upset or attempting to speak on behalf of others with personality disorders.

Thanks for your understanding, and again Welcome to Out of the FOG.

[Exhausted_Supply]

I suffer from schizoid personality disorder and crippling chronic pain and fatigue, among a variety of more nebulous mental and physical challenges. 

I am currently almost completely non-functional and only getting worse as I struggle to navigate the imminent loss of my current housing situation. 

My family make a lot of noise about how much they try to help me, but it is clear that they cannot be relied upon or trusted.  I have no one else.

I'm not sure what I expect to come of this, but I have started making desperate moves. 

Let it not be said that I never reached out for help. 

I NEED HELP

I relate to this.  I don't have SPD, but I am quite ill and reliant on my narcissistic mother.  It is a horrible spot to be in.  I am worried about my health, and I have drafted an email to NAMI, hoping they can connect me with services that will help me.  If you are in the U.S., you may want to reach out to NAMI.  Another possibility would be dialing 211, which will connect you with the United Way.