Ex-Partner of quiet BPD

[Kat52]

Hello fellow travelers,
It's been quite the ride.
I had met my BPD about a year ago.
We connected on so many levels you were long distance and fell in love endless phone calls, text messages. Finally we got together last year. We had an amazing weekend and the day after he started to feel not right in his body. He said directly I don't know what's wrong and then started coming up with reasons that we might not work out. Was at the distance was the fact that I wasn't fully divorced wasn't the fact that he had low blood pressure? It was an endless laundry list. And then he started to get cold and I finally pulled back because it was upsetting me so much and then the game started. Songs were sent in the push pole, began intense music, and then a pull back. He wanted to get together I mentioned going to the shore and he really liked the idea, but he just couldn't commit his feelings for me would bleed through, but he kept having to refer to our relationship as friendship as some sort of magic Tasman, even though he would use a language like profound connection Granted from the universe striking chords that we could never hear individuallyWe stayed friends for six months and then in December he pulled the rug out. I was devastated. That's when the weirdness really started to  hit. There was a snowy Sunday we started remarking on our individual play lists in real time: in response to each other.
Some of it was so romantic and intense I ended up calling him up
But he said I don't think we should be friends.
And then it got weirder with playlists entirely in Turkish Chopin playlist with the last piece done by an artist who looks exactly like me.
And any direct contact with him would result in a no romantic future statement from him
I'm just devastated. Some of the music was really dark. I contacted a friend of his that's when he really put the part ways on me.
And yet stalking my social media.
Toggling his icon to make them flash. There's more but let's just start there. Anyone have similar story?

[bloomie]

Welcome to Out of the FOG, Kat52. What a difficult journey it sounds like this relationship has taken ending with hurt and confusion. I am so sorry. There are so many helpful articles in the drop down menus above and insightful conversations taking place on the sub forums.

One that may be of great help to you is the Separating and Divorcing board for those in the midst of a difficult ending to a relationship.

I am thankful you reached out for support and look forward to hearing more of your story as you feel able to share.