Hello, first visit

[MaryJayne]

My name is Mary Jayne and I am not sure who to tell what, or what to tell who. The 'covert' as I call him, says he can see my health going down and then proceeds to still keep with his behaviors towards me while acting as if he isn't doing anything. It is confusing to say the least, living with someone you know that is capable of being cruel and sadistic at times and then to have them act as life is normal. Well, to be honest it used to be confusing, his world he wanted me to live in that he created for me, and the my world now that I have woken up to who is who and what is what. Now i see this person that I have stood by no matter what as a stranger that I look at each day and realize that I have never known him, and the knowing him now for what he is reminds me that he has always been a stranger and then everything makes sense. I hope it was alright to write this the first time out, sometimes ya just gotta get it out...

[xredshoesx]

welcome to the group @MaryJayne

I am sorry you are dealing with this kind of abusive relationship- we do support people in both the staying and/ or the leaving of an abusive partner.  when you are ready to share more about what brought you to this juncture we are listening and ready to point you to the resources here that can support you best on your journey.